"It happens, and I wish it didn't, but that's life, isn't it?"

             It’s warmer out today than it has been lately, the tree’s leaves growing back in greener and fuller then last year. Spring always was her favorite time of year. The clock ticks in the background, reminding her of the fact he was running late. Normally he would have called and starts to fear the worst. Deciding to wait a bit longer, even though she can’t see anyone even driving up the street, the driveway stays empty. She called her friends first, maybe they knew what was up but no one has seen him today. Now she is worried something is wrong. Sitting down at the table near the window she watched the road again hoping to spot him. A few leaves blow across the street squirrels running up and down trees and birds singing, but no car. The ringing of the phone breaks through the silence startling her. What she heard when she answered is not what she was hoping for. A calm but slightly frazzled sounding voice spoke over the line telling something has happens and she needs to hurry.

The drive was quiet, her radio turned off because even the sound of the DJ was making her sad. Crying would only hinder her driving. Not even taking the time to check her car is locked, she hurried up to the front desk. The nurse gave her a sad smile, before leading her through an endless maze of hallways. The nurse is speaking, something about and accident, but she can’t make sense of the other women’s voice. Her chin quivers slightly as she walked into the room and tried to look strong. The nurse leaves them be and goes to sit by his bed side, griping his hand almost a little too tight. They talk, and talk for what seems like forever. Are they going to have two or three kids? A big house or a small one? She says they need a garden and he agrees.  

Time is running out and she knows it. Suddenly an idea pops into her heads and kissing him on the forehead she hurries’ to get the nurse. She asks if they can bring up the chaplain, and then goes to the married couple next door. Her eyes are watered down as she asks if she can borrow their rings for a moment. They agreed, and her eyes shine. Everyone laughed, and talked and just had a good time. She looked into his eyes, hand gripping his and started on her vows.

She finished her vows but the beeps are getting too slow, his voice is almost too low. Time is against them but he still has one last thing. The chaplain moves everyone back to give them some privacy. He smiles at her, eyes half shut and hand losing its grip. I love you forever; please just remember even if I’m not there, that I will love you forever and always.

Beep…

Beep……

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If I had two boys what would I name them?

Jensen Ackles: Jared Padalecki: Misha Collins

                If and when I have 2 or 3 boys, I will name them: Samuel David, Joshua Paul, and Logan Daniel. I can already picture them in the future too, like in the morning before school when everyone is rushing. I can hear my own voice shouting from the kitchen for them to come eat breakfast. Telling the youngest to put his toys away, having the oldest watch his brothers for a moment because mommy has to grab something. Getting everyone in the car and buckled in. Walking the youngest to kindergarten because he doesn’t want to leave mommy yet and is afraid no one will like him. The other two go on their own because they are big kids now and don’t need mommy’s help. Picking them up after school and hearing about all the new exciting things they did, Asking if they have homework tonight, and if they do then finish it before playing with toys. They all sit at the kitchen table and might have to ask mommy for help. The oldest helping with dinner while the other two come up with wild ideas and fun adventures. Tucking the tired three into bed and telling them a story, maybe one of mommy’s new ideas to see if they like it. I look forward to have kids in the future but it will have to wait until I have a stable job and living.

I just needed three boys and these are my fav~ :)

12 People:

12 people you'd like to give gifts to and 2 possible gifts you might give each

1)      Dad

a)      Tickets to a Notre Dame Football Game

b)      A new car

2)      Nene

a)      A few jackets

b)      A new oven

3)      Dallas

a)      Xbox Points

b)      A new games

4)      Pops

a)      New Tools

b)      Some tickets to a football game

5)      Courtney

a)      Dance related stuff

b)      Itunes cards

6)      Holly

a)      Horse related stuff

b)      Green Day stuff

7)      Morgan

a)      The golden Phone

b)      Cool shirts

8)      Zach

a)      A brain (Loljk)

b)      Northface Jacket

9)      Ally

a)      Doll related stuff

b)      Puppy related stuff

10)   Caity

a)      Hello kitty

b)      Rap stuff

11)   Mariah

a)      A photo album of Ronnie

b)      Josh Hugherson

12)   Me!

a)      A trip around the world

b)      To meet Carrie Underwood

12 Memories;

1.       The last day of school last year in the choir classroom. We took a bunch of funny pictures.
 

2.       Math class last year, first semester. Again we took funny pictures and just had fun together.
 

3.       History with Kinzie and Heather was hilarious and we never really got that much work done but it was fun.

 

4.       Freshman year choir concert with Holly and Caroline. We spent a good ten minutes just talking and taking pictures.

 

5.       Halloween in freshman year when Jessica decided to draw the Harry Potter scar on my face.

 

6.       The summer of 2011 At the Harry Potter Premier with Caity was so much fun. We took a ton of pictures with people dressed up.

 

7.       The last day of eight grade was fun and sad. We took a lot of funny and memorable pictures.
 

8.       January in 2011 at a cheer competition was a lot of fun. I loved that team so much and I miss everyone on it.

 

9.       Also in January of 2011, I broke my wrist so I just stood around in practices but it was still fun.
 

10.   For my friend Caity’s birthday in 2010 we had a scavenger hunt around the mall and my group was Sam and Jenna.

 

11.   August in 2010, the Eight grade cheer team won two gold ribbons. I wasn’t on the team but I was manager. It was a lot of fun.

12.   My friend Kayley’s party in 2009 was a blast. It was a pool party and so much fun. I miss all these memories and I glad I could make them.

 

Food, Food and More Food: Dean and Pie

         

         I can’t really think of anything to relate to food. Friday last week, I started watching Supernatural (A good show by the way, 100% recommends) and one thing I noticed is that one of the main characters, Dean (Jensen Ackles), is always eating. He brings up food a lot too, mostly pie though. He kind of reminds me of my brother, Dallas, because he always brings up food at the most random moments. It’s always really funny in the show when you see Dean eating, or mentioning food in anyway. 

There is a few times where he practically stuffs his mouth full with some kind of food and then tries to smile and he just ends up with a funny look on his face. His younger brother, Sam (Jared Padalecki), will sometimes get onto him for always eating or thinking with his stomach when they are in the middle of a job. Yet that’s what makes the show all the more enjoyable. The funny or sometimes heartfelt moments between the two brothers that can touch your heart or make you laugh until you cry. Dean really loves his pie though. There were like 56 times that Dean eats total in Supernatural and about half of that is about pie, so I think I can safely say Dean is more then a little in love with pie. 

               Something else I can connect to food, Is my grandparents. They are the best cooks in the family by far. My grandpa can make any kind of pie and it always taste wonderful. I always get excited for thanksgiving for one it’s the only time of the year I don’t feel all that bad about eating a lot, and also because I’m a big family person. I love getting together with the family and just spending time together and Thanksgiving is one of those times that we do get together and I love it so much. I have a ton of fun with my family, and we always find ways to make each other laugh. I love my family, and Thanksgiving is one time of the year that I can show it, only through food. 

Movie Questions:

Tell us about your favorite movie and why you like it.
Tell us about the kinds of movies you don't care for usually.
Tell us about how often and where you usually watch movies.
Tell us about what you need for movie viewing (environment, food, company, etc.)
Tell us about what this survey says about you.
If my life story was made into a movie...

Favorite Movie:

My favorite movie is actually really hard to say because I have some many favorites. But in movie movies, not series (Aka: Harry Potter) my favorite is between Pride and Prejudice with Keira Knightly, and the Titanic. I have watched both of them so many times and I love them both so much. They are beautiful movies and I know it’s a little cheesy that they are my favorites but oh well. Pride and Prejudice is probably the one I like more. I just really enjoy the whole romance and how they hated each other at first. It is such a beautiful dramatic movie and I adore it.

Don’t care for:

         I really don’t care all that much for horror movies. There are some I like and I will watch them but I don’t like scary movies all that much. If they have anything to do with Zombies, or Aliens, or people eating people, I refuse to watch them because I don’t like and can’t stand movies like that. I can deal with ghost and demons, but not People eating people. The only Zombie movie I can watch is Warm Bodies because that is a cute movie.

How Often:

         

           I watch movies a lot actually; At home, in the theaters, at a friend’s. I love watching movies. If I’m bored normally I see if there are any good movies on TV or look through the ones I own. Reading and Movie watching is what I like to do in my free time. I like all kinds of movies too; I have recently gotten into like older movies too. I Plan to watch Sense and Sensibility, and Nickolas’ Sparks movies. I just really like movies.

Needs:

            When I watch a movie, I like to have the lights off and to be under a blanket. I don’t really need snacks or anything but having some water is nice. I don’t need much as long as I’m comfortable. I really enjoy watching movies with people, like my dad or my Nene. I just believe that when you share a movie with someone the movie is all the better.

Survey:

            YOUR PERSONALITY

            Take a look at how you scored on the Big Five personality dimensions below. Your scores, compares with the responses of other people, suggest that you may be described as follows:

·         YOU ARE 67% EXTROVERTED

o   You are moderate in activity and enthusiasm. You enjoy the company of others but you also value your privacy

·         YOU ARE 50% AGREEABLE

o   You are generally warm, trusting, and agreeable, but you can sometimes be stubborn and competitive. 

·         YOU ARE 92% CONSCIENTIOUS

o   You are conscientious and well organized. You have high standards and always strive to achieve goals. 

·         YOU ARE 25% EMOTIONALLY STABLE

o   You are sensitive, emotional and prone to experience feelings that are upsetting. 

·       

                    YOU ARE 75% OPEN TO NEW EXPERIENCES

o   You are practical but willing to consider new ways of doing things. You try to seek a balance between the old and the new.

WHY YOU WATCH MOVIES

           We have proposed 10 psychological uses for watching films.
Below are your scores for each of these 10 uses, and the relevant descriptions of the ways in which you enjoy films.

·         Pleasure Seeking: 75%

o   Your high score on the “pleasure seeking” dimension suggests that you are a hedonistic movie watcher – this means you enjoy films that give you pleasure or make you feel good.

·         Nostalgia: 80%

o   Your high score on the “nostalgia” dimension suggests that you watch movies in order to re-experience the past. Thus you use movies in order to repeat or re-live prior experiences and use films to transport you to the past again.

·         Catharsis: 70%

o   Your high score on the “catharsis” dimension suggests that you watch movies in order to feel miserable and suffer with the characters of the movie – this is actually a psychological strategy that enables you to feel better (purging the soul from negative feelings).

·         Aggression: 60%

o   The “aggressive” dimension refers to the extent to which you enjoy watching violent movies in order to release aggression or tension. Your score on this dimension is average or similar to most people.

·         Escapism: 60%

o   The “escapism” dimension refers to the extent to which you watch movies in order to escape or forget about reality. Your score on this dimension is average or similar to most people.

·         Sensation Seeking: 25%

o   Your low score on the “sensation seeking” dimension suggests that you do not watch movies in order to experience arousing feelings – thus you do not have a tendency to prefer exciting or adrenaline-fuelled movies.

·         Artistic: 50%

o   The “artistic” dimension refers to the extent to which you are interested in aesthetically driven, conceptual, and highly creative films. Your score on this dimension is average or similar to most people.

·         Information seeking: 60%

o   The “information seeking” dimension refers to the extent to which you are a curious and intellectual movie watcher. Your score on this dimension is average or similar to most people.

·         Boredom Avoidance: 70%

o   Your high score on the “boredom avoidance” dimension suggests that you watch films primarily as a means of avoiding boredom. Thus you are probably not that interested in what specific movie you choose, so long as it helps you “kill time” and combat boredom.

·         Socialization: 70%

o   Your high score on the “socializing” dimension suggests that you are more interested in the company of others than the actual movie; and that you rarely see the point of watching movies alone. Watching movies is a social experience for you.

  Movie Life:

            If my life was a movie, I think it would be a dramatic comedy. There wouldn't be any one falling in love with cheesy music. There wouldn't be scary ghost or demons in my attic. It would be a family movie, but it would be sad, happy, funny, and it would show even when life through you off the highest cliffs that you never really are alone.