Nothing Feels Comfortable:

Nothing feels comfortable anymore. The old rocking chair is too stiff; the cushion long lost its fluff. The worn love seat against the back wall, color faded and unstable. No matter what I try, or what I do everything feels wrong. Waking up every morning is a lonely feeling and most days I just want to stay in bed. The cold of winter slowly started to creep in, creating a chill everywhere it went, but yet I couldn’t seem to care. Let it come. Let the cold freeze everything in its path. For if everything is frozen then I wouldn’t feel this intense emptiness. The feeling of being lost since that day. That day that tore apart my cold heart. Fire’s blazing on the hot day, a kitchen gone up in smoke. Screams could be heard down the block. A family lost, a life forfeited. That day, when my mind snapped and with anger in my heart I set the house aflame. Cold, insane laughter left my mouth from my spot in the front yard ad my wife and kid burned.